Wednesday, 10 May 2017

My Heart ♡

My heart will never be the same.. every and each time I got stabbed from behind, it bleed and the scar remains but why people see me same as before, cause the love that blind my heart.. the love that make me crazy.. people can judge, but only me who knows everything.. 

I do think that second chance is acceptable but giving a second chance it can either be good and bad.. the effects is depending on the people you give the chance. And please bear in mind giving second chance is gambling. Its like killing you twice if the same thing happen again.. so be prepared.. its not like I'm praying its gonna happen again but ready to face that dissapointment so that I could stand up again. 

Now, I just believe he will change.. I'm waiting for him cause everyone know how much I love him.. its quite hard to answer if people ask "sanggup ke tunggu?" "x penat eh tunggu?" "Mcm mne klau dy buat balik?". I can't answer but I do believe him.. I trust him.. and of course I'm hoping for him. Can he be my last man standing beside me? I do wanna hear he say "aku terima nikahnya" soon.

Tuesday, 12 January 2016

Sometimes..

Sometimes u will feel like you're nothing.. 
Sometimes u will feel that people appreciate u better..
Sometimes u feel stuff inside ur chest.. Because of jealousy.. 
Sometimes u will sad when people u love leave u.. 
Sometimes u will happy when he/she said he/she love u.. 
Sometimes u feel lost..
 Sometimes u are going to give up on everything.. 
Sometimes u try to be strong.. 
Sometimes u try to ignore everything.. 
Sometimes u are not sure with ur relationship.. 
Sometimes u try to forget the most painful thing.. 
Sometimes u encourage urself to continue with the path.. 
Sometimes u cry when things going wrong.. 
Sometimes u smile on little things.. 
Sometimes u laugh crazily.. 
Sometimes u need someone.. 
Sometimes u lie to urself..
Sometimes u want to move on.. 
Sometimes u want to forget everything.. 
Sometimes u tell everything gonna be okay.. 
There are too many sometimes in ur life.. It is a fact.. 

#brokenEnglish

Monday, 21 December 2015

Let's not Fall in Love

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry
Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you
Don’t ask me anything
I can’t give you an answer
We’re so happy as we are right now
Don’t try to have me
Let’s just stay like this
You’re making it more painful, why?
Goodbyes after our frequent meet-ups
Repetition of broken hearts
I can’t find a purpose in these foolish feelings
A mistake with the mask of love
All the feelings are the same now
But in this moment, I want you to stay
Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry
Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you
Don’t smile at me
If I get attached to you, I’ll get sad
I’m afraid that pretty smile will turn into tears
Don’t try to trap us
In the word, love
Because it’s a greed that can’t be filled
At first, it was half excitement, half worries
But in the end, it became an obligation, trial and error
Day by day, I get nervous, your innocence is too much pressure on me
But tonight, I want you to stay
Don’t expect too much from me
I don’t wanna lose you either
Before things get too deep, before you get hurt
Don’t trust me
You always call me
A selfish bastard
Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry
Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you

Wednesday, 7 October 2015

Kahwin hmmm

         Setelah sekian lama menyepi.. yearghhh sbb x tau nak tulis sal apa kan... sebab busy la sangat sbb jenis pemalas nak tulis blog sebab macam2 laa lagi... tetiba rasa nak tulis pasal ni.. KAHWIN..
kahwin hmmm semua nak kahwin.. rasa nak kahwin tu ada tapi calon??? tarakkk ada hahahaha
budak sekolah sekarang pon asyik duk cari jodoh... mana pemilik tulang rusuk.. bla bla bla...
nampak simple tapi tanggungjawab tu besar... aku pon tak lari dari rasa nak kahwin... nak2 bila dah ramai rakan sebaya dah tunang laaa... dah kahwin even dah ade anak... hmmmm tercabar hahahahaha
tapi.... kahwin tu tak semudah mcm dlm novel... bkn mcm drama... 


         Ramai jgk kwn2 da kahwin.. wuuuu jeles habak angg... bila turn aku kn?? hahaha nampak sweet je.. nampak bahagia je... tahniah laa.. semoga kekal dan bahagia ke ank cucu cicit sepapak... hahahaha but, the sad story is petang tadi dapat whatsapp dari kwn baru aka kwn lama..x fhm? x pe laa.. hahaha kwn la.. wlaupun kenal kjp tp rse cam dah lme rpt... and dah lame gile x contact almost 1 year and half.. She already married and with the boy that I know... agak terkejut walaupun tahu mereka berdua mcm belangkas x leh dipisahkan and the most surprising thing is da ade baby... arghhh cute sangat.. but she had some big problem.. yeargh.. masalah rumah tangga.. and I didn't expect it to be happen.. she tell me everything.. the boy left her when she pregnant.. because of some useless bitch.. how could you do that to my friend? masa aku dpt tahu aku rasa cam nk nangis.. rasa cam nk tampo je laki tu.. tapi semua mesti ade hikmahnye kan... lepas dgr citer dia aku rasa takut lak nak kahwin... yess semua laki x sama tp rasa gusar tu ada... sekarang ni fokus habiskan belajar and cari kerja baru pikir kahwin.. and penuhkan ilmu dulu bukan kahwin mcm tu je.. get ready and prepare for it... I'm sharing because I hope people can know how cruel that boy is.. and aku harap la laki2 x jadi cam dia.. 
btw, for my friend please be strong dear.. I know u can. kiss and hug to baby boo for me.. ada masa aku jumpa kau... ^^  



Monday, 6 July 2015

MASUM oh silat

Petang tadi tolong umi masak untuk iftar... abah pn ade sekali.. tiba-tiba tngh syok potong sayur, abah tanya kenapa kena balik UTM awal?? *krikk krikkk* aku senyap.. masa tu da agak.. he know everything... hmmm abah sound lg, belajar tak tau kemana, nk main sukan lagi.. haduhhh sentap... menusuk jantung.. rasa masa tu nk berlari masuk bilik balik... adeihh umi ngan abah pot pet pot pet duk membebel.. aku??? tunduk hadap lantai..mcm lantai cantik sngt je,, lantai pon pelik kenapa aku asyik duk tengok dia... last ayat abah,, "ni last, lepas ni x yah main da"
walaupun slow je bunyi tp aku tahu itu bukan ucapan tapi arahan.. so, aku rasa aku kena turuti,,, dan taati.. 

tak sayang ke nak stop mcm tu je???? perghhh penipu gila aku ckp kalau tak sayang.. rasa nk menangis pn ade.. minat kot... kalau tak minat, dr dulu lg aku stop.. sape nk hadap main combat sport cmni?? kalau tak minat atau nk sijil. balik training sakit2 badan, pagi2 nk pegi kelas pn sengal2 ubi je.. pernah kot merangkak balik bilik lps training.. x caya? hahaha x nk prcaya sudh.. x suruh percaya pn.. kihkihkih... masa tu first time training kt utm..

Dalam hidup ni mesti ade je manusia jenis mulut mcm cilakak.. ofkosssss confirm ade... "alahhh sebab tu je nk stop, ingt pth tgn k?? kaki ke?? logik gk" hello brader and sistar... aku nk habaq sikit, perkara plg utama, lepas taat Allah dan Rasul.. mak ayah.. kau tipu dorg, kau lwn ckp dorg, kau tinggi sikit suara.. dapat dosa.. tak berkat wa habaq kat lu..

Sabda rasulullah s.a.w yang bermaksud:

     "redha Allah bergantung kepada redha kedua-dua ibu bapa, dan murka Allah bergantung pada murka kedua-dua ibu bapa"

sentap.. camne nak berjaya? sebab tu kot rasa cam tak tenang je selama ni sbb selalu sngt tipu umi abah.. sebelum ni memang ade niat nak stop tapi ade je bende yang menghalang.. either people or responsibility,, so untuk masum ni last, sorry to say.. hmmm habis je, say good by to silat.. dah tak boleh nak teruskan perjuangan.. sob sob sob.. kita fokus belahar je. kejar dean ehhhh pointer balik.. susah dah nak dean balik hehehe perghhh nerdd ah aku pasni.. dan tidak lupa mencari pelapis untuk team.. jgn bimbang, aku x kejam untuk tinggalkn team mcm bodoh.. Do you think I'm a looser cause giving up such  a simple matter? For me, you're the real looser cause it is not a simple matter to me.. full stop.

Friday, 7 November 2014

Officially 20


Alhamdulillah.. baru ada masa nak update blog.. hahaha macam busy sangat je kan.. boleh laaa..
3 November 2014, I'm officially 20.. yeayy! semakin meningkat usia, semakin dewasanya aku.. 
harap semakin bertambah matang dari segi berfikir, perbuatan dan juga pertuturan. Hope so.. :)
20 tahun dah hidup dan still boleh bernafas kat atas muka bumi.. Alhamdulillah sekali lagi kerana masih diberi kesempatan.. 


It's quite scary bila dah semakin dewasa.. kena jadi matang.. buang sifat childish yang ada.. ohhh no.. rasa macam tak boleh. sebab still nak rasa environment yang tiada nya masalah.. bila jadi dewasa, kena fikir banyak benda.. Masalah, belajar, kerja dan finally kahwin.. So many things to think and to handle.. mampu kah aku?? begitu besar cabaran yang bakal ditempuhi. haha kalau boleh nak stay kecik je.. x nak besar.. tapi boleh ke? Of course cannot.. 

Birthday tahun ni sambut dekat UTM je.. biasanya dapat sambut kat rumah.. dapat makan sedap-sedap, dengan family, ada kek.. tapi sambut dekat sini pon still best. sebab aku ada kawan-kawan yang ingat birthday aku (ingat ke??) hahaha Alhamdulillah, kerana aku dapat kawan-kawan yang baik.. Yes, nasib baik korang tak de prank cause I hate that thing.. just a nice surprise party.. terharu of course tapi tak mampu nangis hahaha mampu gelak je.. hati besi kan -_- huhu actually memang  tersangat terharu dan agak malu jugak sebenarnya.. >_< 
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thanks untuk present ^^
                                        


Thanks sebab celebrate and thanks jugak sebab wish.. Thanks a lot uollls.. sayang korang semua sangat-sangat..
Buat diri aku, semoga menjadi lebih matang dalam semua aspek dan semoga berjumpa jodoh hahaha tak nak jadi andartu woiii.. 
hahaha amin.. habiskan degree dulu please, baru fikir sal kahwin..
Sekian, anneyong!
adios amigos!
Assalamualaikum.... ^^

Wednesday, 8 October 2014

Mr.PERFECT




Mr. perfect??
what the **** kan tajuk camni.. hahaha ni maybe sebab lately banyak sangat pengaruh drama-drama yang ala-ala romantik gituhh hahaha jadi cam dah kena effect sikitt...
acecece sebenarnya just for fun, for release stress dengan kerja yang 'menggunung' banyaknya, dengan subjek yang tak sempat nak cover lagi, for hilangkan bosan and for everything meh.. hehe :)
tapi kerja-kerja tu semua ketepi sat.. aku malas lagi change mood jadi 'best student', hadap buku 16 hours(tolak tidur, makan, solat,etc) hahaha 


okay! back to the main point, Mr.PERFECT?? which tak la totally perfect kan.. memang sampai tua kerepot tak kan jumpa la, adeihh =_= maksudnya macam perfect di mata orang tu.. hik5
buat masa sekarang that Mr.Perfect aku tak jumpa lagi.. hahaha(hmm iyeker?? )
Mostly opps silap.. certain maybe ada dia punya ideal type camne kan.. aku pon sama..
tapi tak de lah nanti nak cari husband kena full match ngan kriteria yng kita nak.. cukuplah kalau  sedap mata memandang, mampu bimbing aku dan terima aku seadanya.. cewaaahhhh aihh gedikss arhhh

Sekarang ramai lelaki aku tengok rajin workout, minum protein la, main dumbbell bagai, masuk keluar gym sebab nak tough, ada six pack, ketul sana sini, to simple jadi abang sado hahaha BUT nak tekankan kat sini la, mostly, hmm mostly la perempuan tak suka.. badan ketul-ketul,, aishh its quite scary hehehe tapi atas pandangan masing-masing la kan.. macam aku cakap, atas ideal type masing-masing...
Adalah sesetengah makhluk Allah (lelaki) ni pernah tanya aku, ideal guy aku camne kan.. 
Firstly, aku tak suka smokers... reject awal-awal yang smokers.. memang tak.. takkkkkk! hahaha over sikit... hahaha Second, nampak pendiam tapi sebaliknya bila dengan aku... hik5 sebab aku ni talkative, (talkative ke? boleh larr..) so, aku nak yang pendiam sikit sebab boleh laa aku nak sakat hehe... mostly, exs aku nampak pendiam.. hmmm opsss kantoi ekekeke....
Next, tinggi dari aku.. of course! haha minimum 5 cm pon tak pe laa.. asalkan lepas syarat haha joke :P Hmmm apa lagi ek? haaa.. ada jugak certain cakap aku suka lelaki yang muda dari aku.. hahaha kelakar jugak la bila dengar.. tapi aku tak kesah pasal muda or tua, jangan beza lebih 3 tahun dengan aku,,, tu da cukup. tapi exactly aku suka tengok someone yang muda dari aku lebih bersikap matang and kalau boleh dia layan aku macam aku ni muda dari dia.. nampak macho je ohh no, melting hahaha

For now aku tak de la plak crush kat sesape pon.. hmm pikir sat, ada ke? haha tak de.. ade..tak de.. ade.. hahaha rahsia meh.. biarlahh rahsia hehehe  kalau ada, aku akan usaha usha si "dia" hahaha kalau tak de, duk diam sudahh, baca buku ekeke ^^
last but no least, nak tekankan kat sini.. benda ni semua just suka-suka.. tiada kaitan dengan yang hidup ataupon yang sudah tiada... hehe but untuk nasihat la, for those yang couple.. yes, aku rasa aku totally tak layak nak bagi nasihat cause aku pon pernah couple.. First, elakkan berdua-duaan... even kawan pon.. hmm sebab pasti adanya yang ketiga. macam-macam benda boleh jadi. Tak nak cakap banyak sal benda ni, and paling penting, don't neglect your work because of it.. please.. yes! cinta tu buta tapi please jangan buta mata, sampai tak boleh siapkan kerja dan jangan jugak buta hati.. benda yang sepatutnya salah dijadikan betul... don't think to simple about it..


Macam dah banyak sangat aku melalut... hehe sampai masuk bab couple huhu sorry.. nak cakap sikit tapi dah terbanyak plak.. Penutup : tak perlulah kita mencari pemilik tulang rusuk ini kerana pemilik itu sendiri akan mencari tulang rusuknya sendiri , hehehe acah jiwang sikit.. :P 
No offend please.. 
Sekian, anneyong!
adios amigos!
Assalamualaikum... ^^