Appreciation Post

The worst feeling is having bad dreams over n over smpai kau x tahu punca dr mne.. & the most worst dream ever bila dpt mmpi buruk about ur relationship with him.. thats suck.. totally.. but the best feeling is you got him.. lps terjaga dr dpt mmpi tu, he's there.. sometimes it make me secure.. but still takut.. mse tu dia la pnyelamat aku.. just feel secure bila dia respond on the spot lps terjaga.. thanks for that bro.. 

Kdg org blh tgk aku meroyan kt socmed, & ketahui la kwn2 ku semua.. bkn gaduh.. mostly its from me yg x reti bhse bila dia bz & mula overthinking.. dia? Buat mcm xde pape.  Like he said bila aku meroyan, "mapuh mu la, aku nk buat kerja".. Kdg org ckp, xde org yg bz melampau2, yes xde.. sbb dy xde smpai ignore aku berhari2.. Im really appreciate when dlm satu hari tu dia ade text.. tp mnusia x reti syukur x reti rasa cukup.. tu yg bt meroyan & people do think dia ignore aku.. 

"Dulu dekat dia blh bt hal, skrg jauh x takut?"

I do believe in second chance & I do trust him to change. Semua org pnh bt silap.. aku pn.. bnyk kali kecewakan dia & tipu x pnh cheat.. yeah penah but both of us learn from it.. (aku hrp he feel the same). Learn & change.. like he change & fix me..& like I try to trust n wait for him.. it definitely worth at the end.. I do believe that. Distant, mmg x mmpu jauh tp kena la.. nk bt cmne.. satu kt selatan, satu kt timur.. nasib

"Dia muda, x rasa dia x matang?" 

Hahaha the one yg x matang antara kitorg.. tu aku.. aku.. x pnh fikir pnjg.. beza sthn je pn.. dia x kesah & aku pn x kesah.. btw, mmg rmai org ckp aku pnye taste bdk muda.. hoiii bkn.. I do have ramai junior laki..  senang nk masuk dgn dorg.. tp bila aku limit kwn & aku anggp dorg 'bdk' xde nk involve feeling ni. Tp ngn dia lain.. x pnh aggp bdk thats why blh in relay ngn dia tp dia selalu slh fhm ingt org lyn dia cam bdk.. heh

"Dia selalu buat kau nangis, x nk give up?"
Yes, dgn dia terlalu bnyk amat sangat nangis. Sikit nangis, sikit nangis smpai dia bosan.. hati tisu betul dgn dia.. sbb he know me better.. dia ade mse aku jth.. dia bngunkn aku dr lps jth until now. How can I leave him? Even mnyakitkn hati cmne pn dia ni.. he the one who make me smile again.. x pernah fail buat aku gelak..

Org tengok relay aku pn kdg x fhm.. kdg gaduh, kdg okay.. ribut taufan tsunami tu semua ada tp lps tu okay blk.. pelik kn.. yes pelik.. bukan nk menunjuk hbungn yg blm tentu jd ni.. tp ape yg aku bljr.. dont ever try to find someone else bila gaduh. Try to search someone better? Nah, x kn dpt.  Rather than search someone better, stay & build to be better.. stay through thick n thin.. tu ape yg aku pegang.. tp dia x fhm jgk.. asal gaduh suh cari org lain yg lg better.. org ckp x nk.. x nk la.. huh.. just doakan yg terbaik buat aku.. perjalanan jauh lagi.. & for those yg aku ade buat sakit hati, kecewakn sedar atau tanpa sedar.. maaf.. aku x sempurna.. doa yg baik2 je.  peace no war! Adios

Ps: Thanks awk.. thanks.. thanks & many thanks.. dari dulu smpai skrg.. so can we keep fight & love each other much more? Cause I will heart u to infinity, AA♡